This year I turned 38 years old. WHEW! I can say that now. The days leading up to my birthday were very challenging emotionally, spiritually and physically. I thought I would not see my 38th birthday due to major spiritual warfare, but for the grace of God that said NO not this one, I’m still here and I made it!
With the career not satisfying or doing all that I needed it to do and the longing for companionship and authentic relationships I was ready to through in the towel and give up. However, God’s grace allowed me to continue to persevere. He definitely wasn’t finished with me yet.
During this time I even begin to see a therapist and although she offered good advice “something” was still missing. Although I talked to my neighbor a man of God I felt totally comfortable and non-threatened by, my soul desired “something” more. There was a need for “something” more touching me where counseling and talks couldn’t. I now understand the “something” was acknowledgement of who has control of my life. God had to move me to a place of fully recognizing that He, nothing and nobody else has my life in His hands. You see I had to give up control over what I thought I could do. My control, my ability were done. Ultimately He is growing my faith. This has been harrrd, but I’m making it.
A few weeks ago I saw a post on Facebook that said (paraphrase), “Have you talked to God more about the problem than you’ve talked about the problem?” This phrase immediately prompted my spirit of the challenge for me and others ready for change in our lives. We’ve talked to great resources for guidance, but not the source for REAL change for our lives.
So despite what God allows me to experience in this pruning and shaping process, I am extremely glad I made it! I recognize God’s sovereignty and His hand in my life unlike ever before. I am not really sure where this coming from, but Marvin Sapp‘s song My Testimony came to mind and I was led to share. You can listen to the song here: http://youtu.be/kfPDbwJpWr0.
Have a Satisfying Sunday knowing God’s hand is on your life. God’s grace is sufficient to fulfill His destiny for your life no matter what the situation looks like or what others are telling you.
#iwinwithChristwithin #imadeit #youcantoo
P.S. If others can’t reassure you with hope and encouragement, they really shouldn’t be in your circle.
Queenly and Confident Living is Victorious Living!